ok. i am just going to spit all out now. n tomorrow morning i will review what i wrote.

this part will be about singapore. the singapore that i have come to be afraid of, that i have come to see as there is something really wron g with.

during my trips back to singapore i always felt that something is wrong. my descriptions here are probably the symptoms that are afflicting many other cities. the streets are overcrowded and the city suffocated with new immigrants here to work. everywhere advertisements scream for the attentions of consumers, everywhere weekend the shopping malls are sardine packed as if there was no where else to go on your day off. Buildings are pulled down and built up everyday changing the landscape everywhere in the city- the drilling of construction never cease. Yet even with the overzealous market economy and the growing consumerist culture, i find that the people around me are not happy.

to me people always seemed to be troubled by something. and in the beginning all i heard were complains. people are worried about their jobs, their families, they are stressed out in this very competitive and fast lifestyle. the topic of resistance then comes at the very heart of this problem. what are people doing to resist? at first it seems to me that all people do is to complain and take no action. when they are unhappy they complain again. i was frustrated with all the complaining. why wasn't there any action?

that was perhaps the basis of my frustration. i saw that people were unhappy but it seems to me that they have no idea what to do about it. and this frustrates the hell out of me. i thought to myself how am i going to live in a place where people don't speak and voice out for themselves prefering to suffer in silence from fear?? would that not make one crazy? as what i thought i would be right then, crazy. is that it?

later on i begin to search for some proof that i was wrong, that there was more than meets the eye. resistance became my point of interest when i realise that there are people who were doing some sort of 'resistance' on their own. but they were subtle and non confrontational.

of course i realise that there are activists, political activists of the oppositional party in particular who opposes the government in very confrontational ways. but these are not the kind of resistance that i am focusing in.

i'm looking into the kind of resistance that ordinary people do, that are non confrontationaal but that are nevertheless resisting of some sort.

the internet kind, the cultural kind in theatre and visual arts.

the sketch diagram

the last section of my mrp.
i decided it to use foucault's theory of the subject-position
and i have a diagram to go with that. accept that i'm not too sure about the diagram.

i think i have to get my main points down clear first. or i will just keep going in circles.

main points.
1. people are in subject-positions in the discourse. n because they r subjecting themselves can they make sense of their situations.

2. i think that in the particular case of my study, people resisted the ways that they do because they are reacting to what makes most sense to them when subjected under such a discourse. by identifying with their subject-positions they began to understand resistance differently, they began to understand their positions.

3. from these subject-positions that artists/individuals have they realized that the state is absolute. i think this is the most important point.
- the state is invisible but also visible at the same time. it is invisible because resistance never seem to imply the state even in the artist's intentions. yet the state is omnipresence ie visible and artists have to keep that in mind in everything they do.
- one example is that artists adopt a 'do first and see' attitude towards censorship. they go with the flow and are not impatient.

4. because they see the state in this point of view, they adopt different ideas and philosphy about resistance, about the state. they...
- reject ideas of political activism because they believe politics is a war of power and many again reject ideas of power. hence focus on societal issues
- reject ideas that will endanger themselves believing in self preservation without which nothing can be accomplished.

5. their sketches (on their selves when doing resistant work) show ideas of interconnectedness or a connection with others. perhaps they in their subject positions feel this. others that they feel - sadness (emotional), growth, gathering like minded people, touching others.

a resistance that dare not speak its name

a resistance that dare not speak its name
- who the creators are resisting
- government's omnipresence
- people's conservatism, problems in racism , nacrophobia?? n stuff, social problems
- these are the forces that exercise power over the creators. or that the creators are subjected to these power. (can use knowledge/power article to talk about this0

what are their strategies
- what creators do in response
- description of strategies. different types
- prevent prosecution, to get messsge across,- usually its to find ways around restrictions
- here can compare to that of scott's hidden transcript. messages are not that hidden.

what are their intentions
- not against government
- to express self..
actually this part needs more thinking